Saturday, 4 March 2017

Moving On

Long time know  see  write (sorry). Before you read the actual post I have some news! 
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Anyway, today's post is a little bit different to all my others so grab a drink and enjoy!

I feel like there comes a time in most peoples lives when you just wake up and have a 'lightbulb moment'. You start asking yourself questions like;
Is this normal?
Do I deserve this?
What am I doing?
Why have I put up with this so long?
Obviously, you don't just suddenly wake up and think this, there will have been a series of events leading up to these thoughts.

I've just had my 'lightbulb moment'. I realised I have been holding on to something toxic just because there was 'history' behind it. But history isn't a reason to hold on to something.

I was holding on to people who didn't bring the best out in me anymore. Not to say they didn't once before, it's just, they're going left and I'm going right, which is fine. 
I don't want to have to pretend to be something I'm not when I'm around 'friends'. I don''t want to have to filter what I say when I'm around them in fear of it getting round, I don't think that's what friendship is.
I'm fed up of putting in 110% and not getting the same back. Clearly I'm not 'cool' enough to be invited to things outside of the school halls, and I won't change who I am for people who I know don't care about me the same way I care about them. I'm just seen as a back-up for when things go wrong, and I'm done with that. 

I've given out way too many second chances.

I think it's time I distance myself and finally cut this negativity out of my life. I have had my confidence knocked down by these people for so long and for a while I lost sense of who I was. But now I've gained that sense back and I'm so ready to meet new people, and start again.
2017 is looking good.

So, this post was quite hard for me to write as it's so personal and on my blog there aren't many posts where I connect with you guys on a personal level rather than just a beauty level.
I know this post is quite vague but I might go into a bit more detail someday.

Let me know in the comments if you've ever experienced anything like this and how you dealt with it.

Until next time...
Katy xoxo